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Friday, 03 October 2008

  • Hope.

    I am really enjoying this weather.  I am always eager to welcome fall with the utmost excitement.  Although, I felt like this year, there wasn't a very clear transition between warm and cold . . . it was just like . . . short-sleeved shirt today . . . gloves and scarf tomorrow.  Well, alright.  The leaves are beautiful and the cool breeze is my friend.  So be it.  I got so excited, in fact, that I made a trip all the way home after classes one day to pick up a trash bag full of scarves/gloves/coats/sweaters.  I am eager.  Little things excite me, and I'm OK with that.

    Thank God for the miracle of my friend Allison.  She suffered a near-death experience last week, but praise God is doing well again.  God really carried her through the tragedy that her and her husband endured, and I am so blessed that she is alive and well.

    Prayer Request:  A friend of the family passed away last Wednesday.  She was only in her 40's, been married for 24 years (as of last Sunday; she managed to hang on just long enough for another aniversary).  The last 9 months of her life were spent in the hospital.  I'm not even entirely sure what caused her to be so ill.  She needed to be on life support to survive, but was coherent.  Her faithful husband stayed by her side all of that time.  On Wednesday, when she was no longer able to talk or respond much, the doctors allowed her husband to un-plug the machines, carry her to the car, and take her home, where she spent the last 2 and 1/2 hours of her life.  He carried her through the front door and he laid her on the couch in his arms until she passed.  He said she smiled and was warm.  She knew where she was.  We only pray (because she couldn't communicate well) that she knew where she was going. 

    I'm tired these days.  I get frustrated by the simplest thing.  I'm on edge.  I do my best to avoid stress but find myself consistently in the midst of it.  I'm weak.  I'm a bit complicated.  I sometimes don't like to see the brightside of things and jump to conclusions.  I close up.  I cry.  I want to be heard.  And I have the audacity to think that I deserve to be heard . . . or deserve pity, or a break.  I am selfish.  Life could be . . . and is . . . so much worse.  Sometimes I forget that I need to consistently keep God at the front of everything I do.  If I were, I know that I would not struggle to find joy.  I have joy, but I need to seek and find it in the places where joy isn't how I want to feel.  God should be my joy, no matter what. 

    That's what this week has been like.  I accidentally worked ahead and didn't have to do homework on Wednesday or Thursday.  That was a pleasant surprise.  Anyway, I have a "Shakesperience!" performance tomorrow, then I have work.  Hopefully I get to spend a little time with Devin afterwards.  Other than that, I'm looking forward to spending time with God this weekend.  Sometimes I think I refrain from it.  That is perhaps a sign of selfishness, too.

    Blessed,

    Lindsay

Sunday, 28 September 2008

  • How happy some o'er other some can be!

    Performance #1 of SHAKESPERIENCE! is coming up this Saturday.  Four big monologues, a few lines, a dance, and a song down, nothing but polishing left to do.  Nice.  I like it.  It challenges me.

    I had a nifty-ish weekend.  Devin was the nifty part.  Everything else was "ish."  I started my job.  Actually, that was pretty nifty.  I like it a lot.  I believe I'm going to do alright there.  It's interesting.  Heck, it's eye-opening and I'm just the hostess.  Anyway, Devin is my best friend.  He does nice things for me and let's me be silly and odd sometimes.  Friday he met me at Jefferson Pointe with Shmarly.  We went to Starbucks and laughed and drank nice Starbucky drinks.  Saturday he picked me up from work and took me to his house where he had left-over dinner and dessert made for me.  Sunday we visited the True Love Church in Fort Wayne for one of his classes.  It was a little out of familiarity for both of us, but we had each other and at times we literally held on to eachother for dear life.  It was a good experience nonetheless.  After church he took me out to eat.  Yum.  Sometimes when I'm silly or sad, he just holds my hand and that's nice.  He held my hand a lot today.  Thanks, Dev.  He's my buddy.

    I got a B+ on my first chemistry exam.  Puh.  Oh well.  At least I know how she will be testing us now.

    Music Man is fun.  I hurt from 13 hours of dance last week.  You'll have that. 

    I talked to mom for a real long time before church today.  That was nice.  We are friends.

    I'm tired and Devin just called and said that I couldn't do laundry or watch a movie because I am sleep deprived and I need to go to bed immediately.  I'm going to lie and say "I'm in bed, Devin" when he calls.  But really I'll be doing laundry and watching a movie.  Just kidding.  Maybe... haha.  I listen to him, mostly.  I'm ready to see him again :)

     

    That's all for now.

    Lindsay Rae Hoops

     

Sunday, 21 September 2008

  • Air.

    Last entry was "No Air," this entry is "Air."  That's right, my dear and faithful readers.  "As It Is In Heaven" is now finished and I have a bit more time in my life. 

    "Music Man" starts tomorrow.  No need to fret, though.  I have only a few speaking lines.  Of course I need to learn all of the songs, but my main focus will be my dancing.  Because of my dancing role, that's probably what I'll be spending most of my time on in the show.  I met my dancing partner last week.  He's a freshman and he seems really eager to get started.  I don't know his dance record at all, so it'll be interesting to see how long it will take us to get into a sync with one another. 

    This weekend was lovely.  The shows went wonderfully and I got to spend a lot of time with Devin.  He came to my preview show and brought me flowers, and because I wasn't feeling well, he brought me chocolate.  He's a nice one.  He came over today for his birthday and my family made him dinner and dessert and we all watched old home videos from when Lauren and I were little and then a few of Devin.  He was a cutey.  And I was silly.  Here was my rendition of The Twelve Days Of Christmas:

    On the 12th day of Christmas my true love gave to me,

    12 swans a-swimming

    11 swans a-swimming

    10 swans a-swimming

    9 swans a-swimming

    8 swans a-swimming

    7 swans a-swimming

    6 swans a-swimming

    5 GOL-DEN-RINGS

    4 swans a-swimming

    3 swans a-swimming

    2 swans a-swimming

    and a partridge in a pear tree.

     

    That's a lot of swans . . .

     

    Anyway, it was so nice to spend time with my family and Dev.  Our first production of "Shakesperience!" is coming up so that's something to look forward to.  Other than that, this week looks like it'll be pretty chill.  I have a chemistry test tomorrow so I'm headed now to the library to do some more studying. 

    I like singing (about swans?!).

    I like Devin.

    I like laughing.

    Sincerely,

    Lindsay

Thursday, 11 September 2008

  • No Air.

    It's true.  At times I feel as if I have no air.  But regardless of the "suffocation," (metaphorically speaking) I am thoroughly enjoying my sophomore year at Huntington.

    Let's start with my rehearsal schedule.  I usually have about 4 hours every night of rehearsal for "As It Is In Heaven," which opens next weekend.  (Sept. 18, 19, & 20).  This show has been such a great and challenging acting experience for me.  I haven't done a serious show without music where I have lots of lines since my senior year in high school.  I love it.  It's really pushing me hard, but I feel like I walk out of every rehearsal with something new to synthesis into my techniques.  I have the occasional rehearsal for "Shakesperience!" usually after AIIIH.  These rehearsals run for about an hour and a half.  Our first show is October 4th.  After that we'll be traveling to different high schools to perform.  Need I go into detail about how challenging it is to be performing 5 random monologues from several different Shakespeare productions?  It is indeed.  However, I LOVE this show.  I am learning to really appreciate the Shakespeare language, no matter how outdated it is.  The feeling of reciting and then being able to act one of his monologues while understanding yourself is such an accomplishment for me.  Good stuff. 

    First round of Sophomore year auditions:  Horrid.  Well, I shouldn't say that.  I thought they were horrid, but I've learned not to beat myself up over mess ups in theatre.  I did fine on the dance audition.  I forgot some of my lyrics on my song.  Oh, I forgot to mention it was for "Music Man."  I've never seen the show.  I miraculously got a call-back audition for the lead, Marion Paroo, and for Zaneeta Shinn, the lead dancer.  I was mostly excited to get a call-back so that I would have a second chance to sing since the first time I messed up.  Anyway, as soon as I saw my name next to the Zaneeta Shinn call-back, I knew that's what I wanted.  I know I haven't taken a lot of dance, but I have had lots of random training from really great professionals over the past few years.  Therefore, I knew this would be the most challenging (not to mention FUN).  Alas, I was given the role of Zaneeta Shinn and I am thoroughly excited.  After watching a few scenes of her via YouTube, I decided that I can't wait to start.  "Ye Gods!"  (Extremely famous quote of hers in the show :)

    My theatre classes are going swimmingly.  Much like rehearsals, they are challenging me greatly.  So far, so good.

    Beginning Ballet is really great.  I just bought ballet slippers for it.  I love buying dance apparel at Standing Ovations in Fort Wayne.  It's such a good feeling. 

    Chemistry will be my biggest challenge.  I've done really well on the homework, and I absolutely love my lab, but it's the lecture that kills me.  I have my first exam coming up in 2 weeks.  Since I get out of rehearsal early tomorrow, I plan on visiting Devin at work then coming back to HU to put together a study guide for it.  My friend Andrew took tons of advanced Chemistry in high school and has already been a big help.  It'll be fine.  I just have to stay focused.

    I LOVE public speaking.  I had my first speech two days ago.  I was quite worried.  I didn't know if my story was quite what the teacher would want it to be, but he ended up giving me really great feedback and I got a 100%.  I was pleased.  He told the three theatre majors in the class (including me) that this course would be a challenge.  The only challenge I see at this point is the fact that he told us that.  To be honest, I feel like we have somewhat of an advantage.  Acting is completely different from public speaking, but as actors, we are taught to relate to our audience.  Relating is KEY in public speaking.  So, maybe they aren't that different after all.

    I miss home.  I miss going on walks with Mom and chatting with Dad.  I miss laughing with my sister and spending time with my extended family.  I miss getting coffee with Devin (although we've been having "coffee dates" via iChat).  I miss quiet time.  But, as I get deeper and deeper into the semester, I feel like I am finding more and more of it as I figure out and get a better grasp on my schedule.  God is good.  If this is where He wants me, I know I will find the strength to endure. 

    Oh, and my social life died when school started.  I actually don't really mind.  I do have time here and there to hang out, but I certainly am enjoying being alone when I have the chance.  To top it off, I got a Saturday night hosting job at Blu Tomato in Georgetown.  Whew.  OH, and I got another job in the Public Relations Theatre Office. 

    Don't worry.  I have Friday and Saturday evenings and ALL DAY Sundays off.  Oh wait, not Saturday evenings.  I work.  Ha :)

    Thankful,

    Lindsay 

Thursday, 24 July 2008

  • Reiteration.

    Wow.  Last Sunday at the Fort Wayne Godspell performance, I was reminded of how blessed I am.  Looking out into the audience before the show was a huge mistake.  Nothing makes me more nervous than to perform for my friends and family.  When I looked out, I saw that the first 2 middle rows were full of my family and some friends from high school and church.  When we entered the sanctuary and performed, it was dark so I could hardly see who all was there.  At the end when they announced each of our names individually, it was when they called "Lindsay Hoops, from Leo, Indiana" that I realized just how much support I have.  My dad says the screaming gave him chills.  It brought tears to my eyes.  I'm not trying to be ultra proud or anything, but it was a reiteration.  When I first changed majors from nursing to theatre, I was scared out of my mind.  Mom didn't want me to.  Dad practically made me.  The two extremes were overwhelming.  I guess the feeling I got when I got to hear my support group last Sunday was almost a mirror of what I felt when my professor of theatre shook my hand and said "Welcome to the team.  Congratulations, you are now a theatre major."  I've never felt more at peace about anything in my life.  How on earth will I get a job?  I constantly asked myself.  God, if this is where you want me, I will trust you to open doors and to give me the strength to persevere in a world of competition.  I then saw my name on the Godspell cast list.  Without a diploma, only a couple of weeks into my major change, I was cast into a Christian touring musical.  How could I possibly fear?  Why can't I trust? 

    I was talking to Dad today and I'm really thrilled to see what's going to happen with my career.  I'm working on a monologue and song for my "Music Man" audition in October.  I'm also working on 2 scripts for shows I've been cast in for this coming fall.  "As It Is In Heaven" is the fall production, and "Shakesperience!" is a year long tour that I get grant money for.  That's another blessing. 

    I'm just really thankful that I serve a God who holds me in His hand.

    Lenny

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    Hey tootsie, you will definately need to come home and walk me through this new adventure. I know I am a nerd!!!! Love ya MoM